Do you ever have those days where your to-do list just seems TOO long? Where there is so much to do, but it just feels too overwhelming, so you end up doing nothing at all?
That was me last night. I laid in bed binge watching Netflix, thinking about all of the things that needed to get done. I was exhausted, tired, and a bit overwhelmed. I hadn't gotten a blog up since the end of September. I still have three weddings from last summer to share with you. I have two sessions coming up soon. We're hosting friends for a few days this weekend. Tonight we'll host our Thursday Night Football crew for the game. House projects that I swore I'd finish last summer are still undone. Events need planned, tasks need completed, things need cleaned, and somewhere in the midst of it all my hubby and I need some quality date nights, unplugged from all the hustle.
But all of that just felt like TOO much last night. So I chose Netflix and cuddles with my puppy instead. But *just* as I was getting ready to call it a night and head to bed, I decided to check my phone one last time. There was a new message on our business page. I quickly opened it, read through it, and started crying. We're talking full on UGLY crying. Because this is part of what she said, "I just wanted to let you know that your posts on your business page are lovely... I am always looking at other photographer's pages. I often find inspiration there. But when I stumbled upon your page it was more than photo inspiration. It was life goals inspiration. At the risk of sounding like a weirdo... you are a breath of fresh air. Never quit doing what you're doing, because you are making a difference just by being you!"
I read her full message about 20 times last night, until my husband came into our room and found me ugly crying, worried something was wrong. I threw my phone at him because I couldn't find words, he read it, looked at me, and said, "Soooo, these are happy tears, right?!" And they were, and they weren't, maybe it was a mix of both. The feeling of overwhelm dissipating, the feeling of "not good enough" slipping away. The confusion and utter shock that this sweet person took time out of their day to send me these words.
Friends, reading those words hit me to my core. Because this right here is everything. To inspire others to reach for their own craziest dreams: that's my biggest goal in life. I believe in dreaming BIG, and I hope you all do too.
Lately I've been keeping the list of all the things I need to do, or haven't done, and comparing myself and my progress to everyone else. And frankly, that's a dangerous trap to fall into. Because in that place you forget everything you've already done, you forget what you've already accomplished, how far you've already come. And those are things we should never forget!
So whether you're a fellow photographer, small business owner, bride/groom, big dreamer, or just someone who's feeling overwhelmed by life in general right now, please hear me loudly here:
KEEP ON KEEPING ON! The hustle is worth it. The late nights and hard days are worth it. You ARE worth it, and so are your dreams, your goals, your business, and your marriage.
Keep dreaming big my friends, and keep on chasing your wildest adventures yet!
And to this sweet woman who sent me these words that I will never forget, THANK YOU!! I could never fully tell you what they mean to me.
And for the rest of you, I'll leave you with these words from Taylor Swift...